Monday, December 31, 2007
Unfortunately, that carries over into life in general. I do not learn by reading that patience is a virtue, nor do I learn by people telling me how strong I really am. I have to learn to have patience by experiencing the same things, over and over again, which make me impatient. I have to be tested to learn, finally, how strong I am.
One thing which I cannot learn, however, is to not worry. It appears to be an unwanted hobby of mine. I generally will awake about three a.m. and begin to worry about various things, none of which I can control or address at that time. And no matter how many times things work out okay, I still continue to worry, forever generating new worries and losing way too much sleep over these mostly unwarranted concerns.
If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. I would like to take up something more restful than worrying for the new year, perhaps fencing or fire walking or motocross racing.
Friday, December 28, 2007
Never has so much attention been paid to nail care. We have had a frenzy of salon activity here. Kiki trimmed and polished her own nails. She gave Nita a cuticle treatment. Then she trimmed Rocky's ragged nails, ignoring his yelps of pain when she removed portions of his fingerprints as well, simply sitting on his arm to hold him still to "prevent any pain." During quiet time yesterday, she and Nita gave poor long-suffering Bob the Bunny a pedicure. When she started eyeballing Dirty Harry's dewclaws and discussing which nail color would best match his brown coat, we declared a moratorium on beauty treatments for the day.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
I see it now in my neighbor: she feels guilty because she couldn't keep her husband home; she feels guilty because she is relaxing and resting now with him in the facility; she feels guilty because she is relieved to have that stress from her life. When my father died, I felt guilty because I felt relief, and I will feel relief again when my Mom goes, along with the grieving I am doing and have done. So much in the way of loss. We work so hard and spend so much money to keep them alive, and for what? Mom always said (in her own illogical/logical way),"There are worse things in life than being dead."
One thing which saddens my sister but impresses me is how comfortable my kids have become around the odd behavior manifestations shown by the people in the nursing home. The kids, especially the girls, just go with whatever comes up during a visit. Plus, they have learned to see the people who are in there behind the strange brain activity.
On Christmas, my cousins Ida and Sara had sent a huge box filled with great kid presents: fun pens, decks of cards, pencils, small things which kids love. The kids, with some prodding, had agreed to forego opening presents at home on Christmas morning, and to take their stockings and the box to the nursing home to open in front of my mom and her friends. (We would have the family present opening at home closer to lunch). When we left the nursing home, not one kid had any candy left in their stockings--they had joyously shared it with the people there and probably got more enjoyment out of that than they would consuming the candy themselves.
When it was time to go, we went around and said Merry Christmas to the residents. One lady, who has progressed quite far with her dementia and who frightens many visitors with her odd behavior, gave us the absolute sweetest smile, and the kids gave her a hug and kiss. Somehow, deep inside her, she found some memory of Christmas and blessed us by sharing, oh so briefly, the love and joy from that day.
Perhaps it is odd that some of my kids' most important lessons in life, love, and loss are being learned in a locked wing with people who are diagnosed with a form of mental illness. However, I am content to let the kids glean what they can from all this--in this case, our guides have damaged bodies and fragile minds, but their souls are still very much intact, and I somehow think that they are in closer contact with heaven than we are and consequently know what is really important. And who better to provide us with direction?
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Of course, no one is admitting that they had anything to do with the crime. If they had their way, the children would place all the blame on the dogs, who have been cleared because the lid was replaced on the container, and the dogs do not have opposable thumbs. Plus, their tastes being what they are, they would have eaten the container, too.
Consequently, the kids are alluding to someone breaking in while we were out looking at Christmas lights, ignoring the electronics in the house, and eating the almonds, leaving one to throw us off the track.
Maybe we should dust for fingerprints.
This reminds me of a neighbor we used to have, one who called the police because someone came in and stole her scissors out of her desk. When the police answered the burglary call, they discovered the scissors in a different drawer than where they were usually stored. Our neighbor insisted that these were not her scissors, but exact replicas left by the thieves to throw law enforcement off their trail.
Just now, when we subjected each kid to individual questioning, Nita was tripped up and said, "But I didn't eat ALL of them."
We allowed her to plea bargain.
Monday, December 24, 2007
This led me to reminisce about those form letters which we have received in the past.
My one neighbor, Mrs. Gladys Kravitz, always sent those we-are-so-fabulous-I-bet-you-wish-you-were-us newsletters to my mother, who lived next door. It made me want to gag.
I was always so tempted to send out our own version.
Merry Christmas! Yet another year has passed, this one more eventful than the last.
This year, Kiki struggled in math. She has gone to tutoring and has brought her grade from a 40% to a 42%! We are so proud of her, and it cost us only three thousand dollars. The doctor finally has diagnosed her with attention deficit disorder, and we are hoping that is the reason for all those outbursts which we have formerly attributed to hormones.
Rocky is doing so much better; we are so very proud of him. We have been to the police station only one time this year, and the police have been here only once--and this time, he didn't use the siren. Plus, he has been banned from only one store this year, and it is one which we don't frequent anyway. Rocky has been chosen for a special group in school, and he gets to go to a math class with three other boys. Not only that, he has been singled out for reading and is in a class by himself. Plus, his teacher has chosen him to sit with his desk right against hers, and the lunch room ladies allow him to have his own table and sometimes even sit with the girls! He has joined boy scouts, and the leaders like him so well they have chosen him to sit next to them at every meeting! This kid is truly loved.
This year has been great for Nita, too. Hers was the first name learned by her teacher, and the teacher has our phone number on speed dial on her cell phone. I feel so blessed--we are so popular!
My true Christmas blessing is that Mrs. Kravitz doesn't like us and doesn't send us those letters. Perhaps she is afraid of what she might get in return.
Happy holidays to all, and may peace prevail in your homes.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Last week, I parked on the street in front of his scoutmaster's house to drop him off for a meeting. This decision on my part started a chain reaction of illogical events.
Rocky hopped out of the van and raced down the sidewalk, past the scoutmaster's house, to the NEIGHBOR'S house. I started honking my horn, but he ignored me, thinking I was saying an enthusiastic goodbye.
He said he went to the other house because the neighbors had more cars in their driveway. To make matters worse, Rocky ignored all his previous manners training and didn't knock at the wrong house--he just opened the door and thundered into the front hall. Then he froze.
The family, a mom, a dad, and two toddlers, was sitting around their kitchen table eating supper; they, too, froze when Rocky walked in. It isn't every day a black kid waltzes into someone else's house out here.
Rocky asked, "Is this the boy scout meeting?" Oh, duh.
The family stared, forks poised above their plates. One of the little boys began screaming, "A monster! A monster!" Now, I'm not up on these things, but how many monsters are four feet tall and wear cub scout uniforms...
The light finally dawned. Rocky said, stating the obvious, "Uh, wrong house" and backed back out the door. The family stared after him.
Rocky came back down the driveway and zipped back to the van. The girls and I were doubled over laughing.
Tonight I dropped Rocky off again. I was so tempted to drive into the wrong driveway, just to see if the neighbors had started locking their door against marauding monster webelos. However, I restrained myself and parked at the right house.
This one time.
Here is the link:
I have two domestically adopted children and one bio daughter, and with Rocky I was THIS CLOSE to where Peggy Hilt was. And I do mean THIS CLOSE—I had something in my hand and was heading toward him, enraged beyond anything I had ever experienced before. And Rocky, at two, stood there and laughed at me. Luckily, I was able to detach enough to leave him in his room, lock the door, and call someone to come help me before I crossed that line.
Attachment disorder is hard for many people to understand because it totally contradicts the conventional belief that "all they need is love." When a child has not had the basic needs met of crying for a caregiver and having that caregiver come, they don't need love in the traditional sense--they need a therapeutic form of loving and parenting. New parents will take a child who has been surrendered, thinking that THEY can do what the previous parents did not.
What I think people fail to realize is that some adopted children, because of the trauma they experience, are driven by fear, so they are constantly fighting to maintain control of their environment. These kids honestly believe they are fighting for their lives because they could not depend on caregivers in the past, and their interactions with parents, especially moms, have been described as abuse. Much like other forms of abuse, it is subtle and gradual, and the parents feel isolated and are afraid they will be judged or blamed.
To make matters worse, the child is so outwardly charming to everyone else, the parents appear to be unbalanced.
Plus, it is hard to admit "I feel like killing this child" because people do not understand the complexity of the situation--they read an article or see an episode of Law and Order and think they understand this disorder. Also, many kids, both foreign and domestic, suffer from other disorders--fetal alcohol exposure, drug exposure, mental illness, lead exposure, autistic spectrum, and even physical illnesses; this makes the treatment each kid receives complex and different.
Parents who are interested in adopting should educate themselves about issues experienced by children who are in the system. It may take years to find an answer or a treatment which works. Also, they should be prepared to love fully and totally and perhaps not be able to reach this child. Some of the absolute best parents I know would traditionally viewed as failures because their children can no longer remain in the home, but to me, they are the real heroes, the true parents, as they have shown a damaged child what a family feels like.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
This morning, I am at home alone.
This happens maybe four or five times a year. This ironic part is that EG said, "Gee, if I had known you were going to be home this morning, I wouldn't have made these other plans." It was all I could do to not shriek with hysterical laughter.
This is the last day of school until after the first of the year, so I am savoring my solitude.
Generally, the only alone time I get is when I am driving, so the minivan with the bike crash scratches has become my idyllic retreat, despite the homework papers, wrappers, boy scout uniforms, toys and other jetsam which shifts around in the back as I turn corners.
I remember when I was in college--there was a guy we knew who used his backseat as a trash receptacle, simply pitching fast food bags and candy wrappers over his shoulder until he had the time and access to a dumpster, not to mention the inclination to shovel out the mess.
His car got mice.
Which he discovered when one raced over the back of his seat one day while he was driving, and flung its little self into his lap.
Since the driver threw himself out of the car without stopping, let alone putting it into park, he lost control of the vehicle and ran it into some stationary object. When the tow truck guy arrived, he found the driver had gone to someone's house, gotten their trash can, dragged it to the curb, and was using his snow scraper to shovel out the back of the car. The tow truck guy stayed way back until the driver was finished.
So despite the mess which seems to regenerate itself, I am vigilant in keeping the car from becoming verminous. Since I do sometimes arrive places early and just sit in the peace and quiet for a minute, I would hear scritching and nibbling from the back. The kids scritch and nibble, too, but they are much louder. I can tell the difference, I think.
One night, I went to get Rocky from Cub Scouts, and I left the girls at home with their dad. I had left fifteen minutes early, as I felt stressed. I parked in front of the scoutmaster's house, watched the rain fall on my windshield, and called my sister.
I said, "I need to know if I am crazy."
"Well," she replied, "since I am standing out in the pouring rain in the dark and wearing a head lamp so I can barbecue, my perspective might be somewhat skewed."
Anyway, I digress. This morning, I mopped myself into the room with the computer, so I am forced to sit in here or walk on the wet floor.
Guess which one I chose. Maybe later I can grill while wearing a miner's helmet.
Monday, December 17, 2007
And I didn't.
However, this morning we got up and turned on the television (not a normal activity at this house that early in the day) to find that school was cancelled for the day. EG, who does the daytime childcare and relishes his free time during the school year, wailed, "Why? I don't understand..."
I cheerfully hopped into my car to mush the thirty miles on snow covered roads to give a final.
It is amazing how perceptions can shift so quickly. Another day, I may have been saddened and jealous that they all got to stay at home while I had to drive on treacherous roads to administer a test. However, after three days of non-medicated, Christmas hyped children, I was delighted to risk my safety just to get out of here.
And I wasn't in too big a hurry to get home, either.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
EG is giving us updates on the weather from the weather station in the kitchen. He is right on it--telling us every time there is a change, every minute or so.
Rocky has severe ADD/ADHD. For those of your who are unfamiliar with alphabet diagnoses, this means he is really hyper. According to my doctor, we should be leaving Rocky off his meds on the weekends so that he doesn't develop a resistance to the meds as fast. However, despite my not-so-subtle hints, the doctor has not volunteered to take Rocky for those two days a week. We just gave him coffee. I am, of course, referring to Rocky, not the doctor.
What with Santa coming in less than two weeks, the barometric pressure off the charts, and being housebound. . . . I was viewing images of Jack Nicholson in The Shining this morning.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
One dog is yapping because it is suppertime, one dog is sitting in the middle of the living room looking as if he has lost something of value, and the third dog is in the basement after a dose of Pepcid AC. She had a bad case of heartburn for three days and is limited to chicken and rice and is not happy about it, as she prefers a diet of grass, things which stink, and whatever she finds that is borderline edible on the counters. The girls are upstairs, playing Santana and doing their version of dancing, which consists of jumping around until their dad yells or someone cries, whichever comes first, kind of an American Idol contest, I guess. Rocky is in his room, burping out Christmas songs. American Idol redux. Or is that reflux?
It is getting dark. It looks to be a long, long evening.
I remember driving across country, and seeing a deserted house up on a hill, surrounded by corn fields. I started thinking about the women who traveled with their husbands across the country to homestead. These women did not have neighbors nearby, television, radio, the Internet, or much else in social outlets. They had small houses or cabins, and they had only their husbands and children and livestock for company. Sometimes all of them lived in one room. How did they ever survive and stay sane?
It makes me wonder. Perhaps they were of "sterner stuff" than I am.
Friday, December 14, 2007
When my father died, we had already received the diagnosis of dementia for my mother, who had remained at home; we had a lovely woman come in several times a week to help out and check on her. Within three or four months of his death, my mother was in the nursing home for the same reason. The journey continued. As my sister said, we got off the highway and came to a stop, but we even never got out of the car to stretch our legs.
This journey has not been easy, but it has been extraordinary. We have encountered much heartbreak. However, it has also blessed us in such unexpected ways.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
We decided to bring him home.
Since he was a chocolate Lab, we named him Harry London, after the candy company.
However, this dog smelled so bad that we ended up calling him Dirty Harry.
Shortly, I realized that having Harry here is like having Clint Eastwood for a roommate. Like Mr. Eastwood, he is bigger than he seems, more gentle than we expect, and has an unexpectedly quirky sense of humor. I had ordered some dog toys, and this morning Harry opened the box, took out a rubber Kong, and proceeded to pounce on it for an hour or two. He is also much more intelligent than we would first judge him to be. Our female lab, Penny, was outside by herself earlier today, and she started barking at our neighbor’s cats. Harry walked up to me and barked to be let outside; normally, he would walk over to the door and wait, but I was in the other room, and if he had barked at the door, I would have scolded him. And like his cop namesake, Dirty Harry, our Harry won’t start something, but he sure will finish it.
However, our Harry has separation anxiety. We would leave a radio on, give him treats, and sneak out of the house, but he would bark anyway. He tried digging his way out of his dog crate, so we went out and got a replacement. One afternoon we came home to find that Harry had pried off the thick wires running down the sides of the new crate, leaving the cross wires intact.
We, stupidly, figured that would hold him. The next evening, the kids and I came home from the nursing home to be greeted at the door by an ecstatic Harry. He had busted out again, obviously squeezing himself through a six inch square opening which he had previously opened. Consequently, the dog crate has been relinquished to the basement, and Harry has the run of the house. I think we may change his name to Harry Houdini.
Friday, December 7, 2007
These things are difficult for me. I like quiet and serenity. That is not something which Christmas concerts promise to the viewing audience.
I always have the perception that the children, when dropped off, would go to their seats, and the parents would do the same, keeping an eye on said children so that any miscreants who start galloping around the auditorium would immediately be redirected to the appropriate place. My kids know that they will do as they are told, or they will be pinned to said seat by the laser beam stare which I inherited from my mother. In her day, she could bring a ten year old boy with severe, unmedicated ADHD to a dead stop from across the room by merely raising an eyebrow.
And I understand now that I am delusional in thinking that the parents and grandparents would sit and respectfully listen to the other performers even while their children are not on stage. Never in a million years would it occur to me to talk on my cell phone while some children were performing The Littlest Angel, or to clean out my purse, loudly discussing each item I found with the person next to me, during Silent Night. Nothing like "all is calm, all is bright, round yon virgin, oh, look, now why did I keep that receipt from Burger King from last March?" to set a festive tone for the holiday season.
Also, what is this with the videotaping frenzy? These people are so busy recording the concert they don't pay any attention to who or what is around them. Last night, a man decided to videotape his child, who was in the same grade as my child, by standing directly in front of the empty chair in front of me. No, he didn't sit down. So, I had the choice of poking him in the seat of the pants, moving, or staring at his derrierre (a rather elegant term for a not-so-elegant view).
Since I am not incarcerated, guess which one I picked.
To make matters worse, I was somehow the only mom who did not get the letter about the costumes--the kids were to wear yellow shirts and crowns. When I asked Nita this week if she had to wear anything in particular for the concert, she said, "A tiara." Since this child is stuck in princess mode 24/7, I dismissed that as opportunism on her part. Consequently, my child stood out because she was wearing a very red poinsettia patterned sweater in a sea of yellow and gold
She was a whole lot less distressed by this than I was. Except she would have enjoyed that tiara, and I am sure she will remind me of that on numerous occasions over the next few months.
But the good news is that the concert season is over, and now I can get in the holiday spirit by sitting in my living room and putting in A Charlie Brown Christmas. Just those couple of minutes with Linus lisping while he quotes the story of the birth of Christ can center me each year and bring me back to where I need to be.
And I guess this is the moral of the story. We get so caught up in putting on and preserving the perfect show that we forget that simplicity is the real answer, and that the most perfect moments can only be recorded on and preserved in the heart.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
It has been a week, and perhaps things will calm down before the holidays.
But perhaps not.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
This is a week for wearing people out. The kids are sick. Along with the normal work/kids activities/school program schedule, we have had an electrical issue because the ceaseless rain last week caused a never-seen-before lake in our front yard and the standing lighted outdoor Christmas decorations shorted out. Siding blew off of the house because of the wind and we had to replace it in the pouring rain.
The rain finally did stop, only now it has turned to snow, snow, and even more snow. It took me 90 minutes to get to work today. And, of course, the kids assumed there would be a snow day, then responded with the expected whining and complaining of "that's not fair" when the bus could get through. I mean, we live in Northeast Ohio--this is what we always have, and why expect that the world is going to shut down because of two inches of snow?
Then there was a water problem in the basement, which turned out to be a leak in the pipe which carried dirty, murky, stinky water from the sump pump to the outside, and which I couldn't help but discover when I was standing right next to it when the sump pump engaged and the effluvia spurted all over me and the clean laundry. And of course, shutting down the pump before it completed its cycle was not an option, so I had to just wait it out or walk through a worse spray to get out of the way. The kids told me that I smelled like hard boiled eggs. Plus our renters called us--they are having problems again with their electricity, oh, and they can't pay the rent on time. Again.
EG had my grandfather clock fixed this week, and it strikes the hour--one o'clock--on the hour, every hour.
The clock man informed me that it was right--twice a day at one o'clock.
Plus, the SWAT team was outside work today, one of my students now has a warrant issued for her arrest, and in an unrelated case, there was an alleged theft in my classroom yesterday.
And it is only Wednesday.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Nash loves stuffed animals, and he will grab them and run around the room. The kids will scream hysterically, but Nash will drop the toy on command.
Unfortunately, we have a neighbor who has cats, and this neighbor does not spay or neuter. The adult cats live for only a couple or three years, and new generations replace the old ones. Her cats are allowed to breed indiscriminately. They are beautiful animals, nicely marked, and very sweet, but because of inbreeding, poor health care, and most likely poor food, they are, to put it bluntly, stupid.
One gorgeous mama cat insists on having her kittens in our shed or burning barrel, right in the middle of the area where our dogs run. Our neighbor will come over, retrieve the mother and the kittens, and take them home to the garage. If she gets out, the mother will try to bring them back to us. And so it goes. Once the kittens are about six weeks old, our neighbor will allow the kittens to go outside. We try our best to keep the dogs away from the cats. Unfortunately, between the dogs, raccoons, opossums, hawks, foxes, and coyotes, the kittens rarely make it much beyond this point. Eventually, only one or two kittens will have survived. At this point, the mother cat will bring them over to the border of the dogs’ radio fence, and all will sit just out of reach, washing themselves, and I’m sure giving the dogs little kitty flip-offs when I’m not looking.
Eventually, the mom will decide it is time to trek the little ones directly across our yard to teach them to hunt baby bunnies and mice in our field. Unfortunately, this is where Nash gets involved. I can see his little doggy brain alert, most likely thinking, “Hey! A walking fuzzy toy!” Or, “Finally! Now’s my chance!” He will run up to the mother cat, who will retreat back home, leaving her kittens to their unfortunate fate--some mother. The kittens will sweetly wave their tails in the air and stare at Nash, who will then grab a kitten and race around the yard with it. He does not kill the cats outright, but the outcome is usually inevitable by the time we tell him to drop it.
We have taken our concerns to our neighbor, and she says she understands—it is an unfortunate thing that her kittens die and she knows the dogs are acting on instinct. I have strongly suggested to her that spaying and neutering are a part of responsible pet ownership. She told me, “But we like having the kittens, and the mother will miss having babies.”
Or if we are going to assign human feelings to an animal, maybe the mothers will be relieved to not have babies, only to have them die.
Friday, November 30, 2007
At that time, I didn't see the attraction.
However, as I get older (and so does he), I find that Mr. Clooney is becoming more and more appealing.
First, he is goes by the name George. It is a regular guy name. It isn't like he had the need to call himself Montana Canyons or Derek LeBoeuf, or at least he didn't succumb to these desires if he did have them.
Second, this is a man who is secure enough to let himself go gray. Unlike Robert Redford's unnervingly (yet still attractive) blond hair, George is what he is.
And third, the man is intelligent and not afraid to show it. He is not attempting to impress us with outlandish stunts performed with large firearms--he is more apt to make us think while entertaining us.
So, the younger guys in Hollywood can dazzle women with their toe-curling good looks. I figure by the time that Mr. Clooney and I are both in our sunset years, he will be employed and I will still be watching.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Or at least that is what Kiki, my preteen, tells me. She already has shown all the eye-rolling, screaming, irritated, hormone driven impatience exhibited by so many of her age group. If I ask her to unload the dishwasher, she reacts as though I have requested a five-year-long commitment served in a cloistered convent where speech is prohibited at all times.
This kid has a gift, though. She is incredibly talented at singing, and her dad, a vocal coach, has made sure that she still sings like a child instead of a miniature Ethel Merman.
A couple weeks ago, Kiki was requested to do a solo in a program of Christmas music to be shown on local access cable. I drove her to the church, and waited while I listened to a musical group with an overly loud drummer and a bunch of bell choir members who were so busy talking that they appeared unaware that the video crew was actually recording. When it came Kiki's turn to sing, she stood up in the spotlight, opened her mouth, and sang this simple song with a beauty and purity that brought tears to my eyes. And she did her song in one take.
Today, this same child who brought such a feeling of tenderness to me is yelling, "That's not FAIR!" because this mean mom is making her do her homework correctly.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Munchkin is a child who appears to defy logic. Today his teacher sent home a note from the lunchroom mom stating that the munchkin "took food off of someone else's plate, chewed it, and put it back."
When I asked him about it, he told me it was green beans and that he only put back the ones he didn't chew. Sigh.
The playground moms have written him up for running into people. He said they were in the way.
I live with this child, and believe me, I know how exasperating he can be. However, he is like those anti-heroes in those old movies--he follows his own code. And I really doubt that the moms on the playground and in the lunchroom get the code. There are days I don't.
However, I also don't get "male." Munchkin will say, "Watch this, Mom" and throw a stick in the air. I take it I am supposed to ooh and ahh over the path of the projectile and be thrilled at how far it goes, how high it rises, or the arc it follows. I mean, we aren't talking Galileo here. I make approving noises and quickly move on, unless said projectile encounters a breakable object such as a window or a younger sister.
Just now I was surfing the web, looking for some insight into the effect of testosterone on the brain of the XY chromosomers. One web site actually warns young men that girls are not impressed by those who throw rocks at ducks.
Perhaps I should bookmark the site. Or maybe I should just hold out for another eight or ten years.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
I was telling this to my sister, who suggested that I get my thyroid checked. She told me, “Thyroid does run in the family.”
Just then, my girls came into the room, screaming hysterically and smacking each other, which is pretty much a standard method of communication for them. My sister added, “But then again, it may just be your life.”
I adore my doctor—he is a good physician and listens, one of those medical professionals who is so attentive that women find themselves babbling when they are in his office, basking in his interest and finally feeling validated. However, I am not sure he “gets it” about being a mom. I mean, suppose I am showing some physical symptoms. Could the symptoms be the reason for the tiredness? Or could they be caused by three kids, three Labrador retrievers, a full-time job, three years of dealing with parents with Alzheimer’s, a house, and so on?
One of the women at work was talking about a new diagnosis which her doctor thought might be related to this woman’s forgetfulness and distractibility. He called it Adult Onset Female Attention Deficit Disorder.
She looked at him and declared, “DUH! That’s called being a working mom.”
There you go.
Friday, November 23, 2007
We tuned in at the very end of the Macy's parade yesterday. We saw a lot of singers who were too young for me to recognize, all of whom were lip syncing to their recorded music. We saw Kermit the frog from many angles, and we saw a couple of marching bands. We also saw a lot of commercials.
And we heard the commentators yak yak yak over the soundtrack. At times, they were so excited that they shouted.
Why is this? Do the commentators feel that "parade sounds" are dead air? Is what they say so incredibly relevant to the parade that our lives can't go on without knowing that this band earned its way to New York by selling calendars and pulling weeds? Or that Kermit weights over 300 pounds? Are factoids more important than entertainment?
Why can't we have a passive parade experience?
Thursday, November 22, 2007
This one isn’t a mother—she is a mommy.
That one doesn’t have a spouse or a husband—she has a hubby.
Recipes are yummy. That fine actor in TV is a hottie. We want to eat enough veggies.
It makes me rather scream-y.
I realize that E is the most common letter in the alphabet, but can we please do away with the cutesy dialect? Why on Earth is it necessary for women to talk like Betty Boop? Why is this a good thing? If our men piped up with these affectations, we’d be appalled. At what point do we stop talking like sixth graders and start speaking like adults?
Just a few minutes after I began these musings, I sat down in the living room to read a cookbook to find some quick recipes. I have watched Rachael Ray once or twice while visiting someone in the hospital, but she, quite frankly, is too energetic for me. If I bounced around in the kitchen like that, with the flames and hot liquids and sharp objects, I would end up back at that hospital, this time in the ER.
However, the woman is nothing if not coordinated, and she can cook, and I do appreciate her efforts to make food prep accessible to all of us. Unfortunately, it took me a while to determine what EVOO was…some newfangled substance? By-products of the emu? I started cooking at age seven, and even though I don’t live in a metro area, we do have supermarkets here, and I had never encountered EVOO.
As it turns out, I had, just not with that nickname.
And then…and then…I reached the section on “stoups.” Now bear in mind, I cut my cooking show teeth on Julia Child and her French verbiage, but this one was new to me.
When I hit the chapter where we were making “sammies,” I realized I was somewhere along the line destined to fight a losing battle. However, until I run out of strength, this non-foodie mommy will not be eating yummy sammies and veggies with her hottie hubby.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
When I arrive at work, every morning, I usually am the one to brew the decaf, and it is generally my intention to drink only decaf that day. However, the spirit is willing, but this ample working mom flesh is not just weak, it is flat-out pooped. Some people spike their coffee with cream, some with liquor, but I spike mine with regular coffee. Who am I kidding? Recently I realized that there should be a recovery program for people like me, people who wonder if mainlining caffeine might not be a viable option.
Monday, January 29, 2007
And finally, he shared something with the family, launching it airborne and spreading it to the rest of us with great efficiency.
I stayed home from work today because I was sick, and my oldest stayed home from school. After school, youngest and the munchkin were hyper, oldest was cranky, the dogs were yapping, and I was about ready to lose my mind. When my youngest followed me down to the basement and scared the life out of me with her light-up Hello Kitty boots when I came around the corner, my voice dropped into the calm, controlled, quiet range that my kids just KNOW means danger. Youngest decided to go to her room for a while. Next thing I know, supper is ready, and all three kids are sound asleep.
Do you think I woke them? Let's just say we can always have that chicken and rice tomorrow night, too.